Someone asks, ”how do you feel today?”
Frustrated, with my body for not revealing answers.
Disappointed, for not being able to be ‘normal’.
Angry, at the term ‘normal’. What is normal?
Ashamed, of myself for not being strong enough to win.
Dominated, by the dizziness and being unable to walk alone.
Defeated, by my own brain.
Challenged, by the nausea.
Nauseated, by my stomach not digesting.
Cheated, by Luck.
Hopeful, of finding a way to manage all of this.
Fortunate, to be supported by family and friends.
Envious, of those who get to travel, study, live.
Obsessed, with finding answers.
Troubled, by negative thoughts.
Crushed, by reality.
Stupid, when the tests come back ‘all clear’.
Optimistic, that one Specialist will be able to help me one day.
Nervous, about the future.
Thankful, for the good times.
Unattractive, because of the changes in my body.
Brave, for battling for so long now.
Exhausted, by the illness.
Behind, in my life plan and dreams.
Longing, for relief.
Loved, by few.
Powerless, to the Insomnia.
Confused, as to what I’m meant to be feeling.
Powerful, for crawling through Grocery aisles.
Inspired, to spread awareness and provide support.
Sympathetic, to others who are suffering.
Pained, by the weakness in my body.
Skeptical, of all of the specialists and their theories.
Isolated, from society.
Fearful, of what is to come.
At war, with my mind.
Motivated, to continue to fight.
Tempted, by the darkness.
But my voiced response is…
”I feel okay”.
How do YOU feel?
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