I can’t sit here tonight and write an inspirational post about how things get better when you have Chronic Pain and Chronic Illness –
that your health journey is comprised of supportive Doctors and Specialists, positive thoughts, and constant love and concern from family and friends – not when I know in my heart that it would be a lie.
Today, in this very moment, anything uplifting that I potentially write would be a massive lie.
in all honesty,
I would like nothing more than to leave this world ever so quietly tonight,
and judging by the severity of my symptoms this week,
I don’t think that anything anyone could say would convince me otherwise.
I just have to sit here and go through the exhausting motions of every single symptom,
thought and feeling,
even though I’d very much like to feel nothing.